It's gonna be a long i suppose,
so much have been happening around me,
which have left me restless, pathetic and worried & yes sometimes angry,
angry with why things always have to end up this way....
despite the fact that, aft so much of ups and downs, just when the future seemed shining,
one or another leads to an emotional roller coaster, which seems to be never ending
honestly, i don't know if you deserve this,
i have always seen you as a strong girl,
someone who can stay through thick and thin,
little did i know that you were so fragile,
what turned your character this weak?
i really respect seeing you despite all the heartbreaking moments,
staying true to your love, THIS LOVE.
never have i seen you this determined when it comes to your love issues,
seeing you this serious and not getting appreciated is what makes me feel more worried,
i wont blame others for bringing you to this stage,
we don't know what problem they are having, and its not fair to accuse them i realized,
i sincerely hope that the least they do is understand you and open to YOU at least,
just so to make your wait worthwhile, and like they wish for a new beginning
and also for like for claiming to save the r/s
i am going to have my hopes high darling, just for you
i feel that you need some encouragement
after all that harsh words you heard from everyone including me
nevermind, what ever i said,
dont care what others say,
you just stay positive, i am going to too :)
lets all hope that things will change for the better :))
as for Aelfric,
i am so sorry for whatever i had said wrongly,
i did not mean to look what ever you said or did in a pessimistic way,
i got too emotional about my friend like you said,
yes i shouldn't have done that, because you are my friend too
but just imagine if you see your friends going through shit
would you keep quite? even if you do, one day you will just burst,
like how i did?! hmm, sorry da once again.
i really hope you will be back soon,
refreshed, recharged like the hyper happy Aelfric i first talked to..
I dont know if you realize that we miss you, loads and loads.
yes you have a busy life, and many problems where you are facing alone,
to add on, you have a boyfriend whom you have to share your time with,
not going to emphasize on the point that, you suddenly went missing,
perhaps we too had, but where were you when you were most needed?
when you were going through problems,
i believe that you were not abandoned alone to fence for yourslef,
nevermind, thats not the point.
the point is, we are very happy seeing you happy already..
after seeing you suffere for so long, finally can see many smiles on your face,
you are blessed to have met him, who turns out to be really a sweetypie,
we know that he will keep you happy and satisfied, so thats enough da
at one point or another, i guess drifts are inevitable..
but yes, you ask us anytime, WE MISS YOU ALL THE TIME,
THE THOUGHT NEVER GOES AWAY, & YES WE LOVE YOU VERY MUCH :)
and like FINALLY,
after waiting for weeks and days,
i will be flying off to INDIA for my sister's wedding,
6 dec to 31 dec, is like really a long break,
much deserved i think,
i really cant wait to see my family and relatives down there,
its been 3 years since i last saw them,
and a couple of newcomers to the family, my nieces and nephews :)
i am an aunty so soon can?
LOL, going to miss my dearies loads :)
i promise to get some souveniors ok?
i want good news when i come back!
you know what i mean :p